Loneliness

Have you ever had it happen that you just feel an overwhelming sadness, a sense of alone-ness. No matter how many people I surround myself with, how many people I talk to or chat with sometimes it just won't go away.

I never understood how I could be so distinctly not alone and yet be so incredibly lonely. It just seems odd to have people around you and know they care about you and yet feel as though you are completely isolated and insulated from the rest of the world.

Maybe it's the alcohol, maybe it's the realization that I haven't really been with anyone for two years; whatever it is it's damned depressing.

Warcraft

I started playing again, though so far my adventures in wonderland have been brief. As far as I can tell thats a good thing, its just been for fun and thats the way I like it. I like it much better as a happy little hobby rather than an obligation.

The Burning Crusade

I went and bought the expansion pack for World of Warcraft today. The consideration of doing which likely played a fairly significant part in my contemplations of addiction early this morning.

Hopefully this time I can keep it under control so I don't have to abandon the game so completely again.

The Moral Animal

I finished this book a couple of weeks ago and it was probably the most thought provoking thing I've read in years.

Its a book by Robert Wright about evolutionary psychology. The general gist of it was that all of the emotions and a large number of our moral feelings are just as much the cause of evolution as they are the effect of our society and its norms.

There was more I wanted to say about this book but unfortunately I've waited to long to write this and so do not remember what else it was I wanted to say.

Addiction

Recently, probably because of this show called Huff I've been watching with my brother, I've been thinking a lot about addiction. Actually, maybe its not so much the show as it is the behavior of my brother and myself... Regardless, addiction... It seemed strange to me the body can become so dependent on some substance that it can not function normally without it. Then strangely enough I got to think about how much the body needs other things. Now I realize these other things are pretty necessary to, well you know, living but it seems as though its largely the same principle. Sleep, nutrients, water all of these things are things we as human beings require in order for our bodies to function normally. So I suppose in some twisted way human beings are addicted to sleep.

I suppose its odd to think about things in these terms, but I can't help but think the phrase 'addictive personality' is a complete misnomer because we all have it in us to quickly and easily become addicted to all sorts of things. Games, television, computers, anything it seems can be addictive at least psychologically. I suppose addiction is really just habit taken to an extreme.