Lately I've been thinking about what I do with myself. A couple of months ago I was unexcited about my new job but I was confident about myself and working out nearly every day; I'll be a little egotistical and say I looked good. Lately I'm much happier with my newish job but I'm also kind of bored. As work has picked up my social life has declined. I don't really go out.. at all, ever. I'm also not working out, and I realized this evening I'm getting a bit fat again.
On top of my declining self-confidence I realized I'm somewhat depressed about my life and where it's headed. I'm not seeing anyone, in fact I haven't been emotionally involved with anyone for over two years or physically involved with anyone for almost six months. I'm 25 years old and I've had sex with three people. All of my 'relationships' have either been one night 'things' or serious long term relationships. Not to say long-term relationships aren't good but sometimes I feel like I'm really missing out. Maybe this realization is because my best friends through high school and college were something of male sluts, more and more though I think it's simply because I'm lonely as hell.
I live in one of the biggest cities in the world and yet I can't meet people. I don't know why.. I have no good reason but I seem to be completely socially inept; at least as far as meeting new people is concered. When I'm out with people I know I'm fine, but when it comes to treading new and unfamiliar ground or attempting to converse with people I don't know I'm pretty useless.
Brain of Bryan
Musings of someone who just moved to Brooklyn. I'll start there and see where this goes.